“Do you get lonely?”
was her genuine question.
What could I say?
Of course, I sometimes do!
The next day,
I woke up in tears…
I felt lonely.
Briefly, I forgot;
the issue of loneliness-
was dealt with
long ago!
That idol, once driving me,
now safely surrendered
at the foot of the cross.
Why idol?
An idol dictates one’s actions
and demands to be served.
When decisions arise
requiring letting go-
the idol will win
every time.
A deceitful disguise,
capturing the world’s pity and fear,
arousing the heart’s tendency
to attach to and nurture self-pity.
It is but another way
to justify wrong action,
ending up in the fowler’s snare.
My choices were poor then,
dictated by that idol’s need.
I had a call on my life
to serve only one Master;
the other needed to be dethroned.
I did not know then.
Only when shown from above.
Loneliness,
now,
at times pays me a visit.
A mere reminder
to draw closer to Him.
Never again,
to take up residence.
25 September 2020